So soft

I guess I'm yelling because I'm waiting.  Waiting for the rain to come.  I've become desensitized to emotions.   I've just been waiting for that one lovely sunshine girl to come in and turn me upside down.  so that I know where I am.  My focal point,   I want a name in my phone that makes me nervous.  Its like I've been asleep in my cupboard during an ice age, waiting for the sun.  Alarming